Saturday, January 21, 2012

DramaQueen#3 Because you now know that the little faith there is left in me, I have placed in you.

Dear X,

I am writing this letter to tell you what I think of you.

I do not believe in first impressions, how can I possibly judge a person based on one meeting? Or merely on talking for a few minutes? You might look like a jerk and end up being one of the nicest people I've come across. So, yes, I do not believe in first impressions. You can't really judge until you really understand and accept them.

So, I decided to take time and understand you, rather than misjudge you merely because of one conversation. I decided to understand you, accept you, and love you for what you are.

When I first got to know you, I thought you'd be just another friend. A passing phase, rather. After a few months, I thought, we will stop talking except the customary hello's and hi's. I was proven wrong,though. I'm SO glad I was. To start with, you've been there for me through such tough times, but you've always given me support. You've always tried to lighten my mood by cracking your silly pj's. You've always caught my tears and made sure that they don't fall again. You haven't only heard my silly stories over and over and over and over again, but you've heard them PATIENTLY-without judging- and made me believe that if I believe in myself and the people around me, I'm going to be perfectly happy. You've taught me how to be happy, how to appreciate the good things in life, how to content and satisfied with myself and totally forget the bad things, the bad people, their bad doings. You've tolerated me when I'm hyper, or ridiculously low, and the funny thing is- you always know what to say. It makes me so happy. I'm so glad I have people like you in life, to surround me with your positive vibes and the happiness you bring. I can be 'me' with you around without caring about being judged. I've seen people walk out on me, but you reignite that spark, that flame that wad doused long ago. Between all the drama, idiotic remarks, making fun of each other, I think I found a true friend. Even though I hate it when laugh at me for being so obsessed with clothes, all that you've done for me sums up for everything bad thing I've been through in my entire life. Each and every bit of it. I may not be extremely good at anything,with the attention span of a goldfish that I have(:P), but what I do know that no matter how much I mess up, I can come to you teary-eyed, looking hideous, and even at that spur of the moment, you will know what to say. You always do. You always know when I'm low, even when I say I'm not. You know why I'm smiling, why I'm not. You know why I'm crying. You know why I'm giggling, and turning red. We don't need words to communicate anymore, our vibes say all there is to say. What I feel for you, X, I don't feel for anybody. You make me feel so safe, so protected and so loved. Just like a younger sister. I don't know why I'm even trying to tell you what you mean to me when I know that it can not be put to words. Maybe, someday I will, but as of now, I don't think I can imagine putting your worth into a blogpost. X, all I want to say to you, is , thank you for having faith in me and my capabilities when I lost all hope. Thank you for letting me trust you. Thank you for letting me love you. Thank you for being there for me, when I wasn't there for myself. Thank you for listening to me, when I knew no one else could. Thank you for putting some sense into me. Thank you for holding my hand tight and getting through each trouble with me. Thank you for being there for me even when I'm horrible to you. Thank you for making me realize not to take my life for granted. Thank you for making me believe in happiness, all over again.Thank you for being so awesome Thank you for being dependable.Thank you for being a part of my life, because with you around, it makes it all the more simple to live and get through life. Thank you for standing by me- like a soldier- in the good times, and even more in the bad times. Thank you, for being you, and allowing me to be me. You mean the world to me. Maybe more.

Much love,
The DramaQueen

"I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now.
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding,
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding.
There are many things that I
Would like to say to you,
But I don't know how.
Because maybe, you're gonna be the one who saves me.
And after all, you're my wonderwall."

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